First Ultrasound



Yesterday was my second pre-natal visit. I already pre-listed the day before, I was number 5 to be seen by Dr. Darleen San Jose-Estuart my obstetrician-gynecologist.

The typical question and answer happened. Asked me if there were any pains, discharge or any abnormal thing I felt during the last month... there was none, save for the unusual contraction (or hardening of my tummy) the last few days... maybe it happens at night and once in a while during the day. It was not normal. I should be feeling a little contraction during the 5th month yet so she had me lie down her small bed and listened to the heartbeat. Just to be sure, she also requested for me to have an Ultrasound.. Oh no... I was getting nervous at this point. Who'd accompany me there? Mama is at work...yeah, Love2! she doesn't have a class on Thursdays!

So there, 2pm Love2 and I went to Brokenshire Hospital to have the ultrasound..
It was a cool thing! I saw the baby (or what seemed like it!) for the first time. It was like a tadpole! hahahaha... The doctor there showed us the head, spine, heart (beating!), feet, hands (although really small!)... And there, it's done! :D

It was one of the coolest thing.

I am 16 weeks pregnant by the way. And I am due on Aug 1-07. Cool huh? the ultrasound also showed when my last monthly period was. hehehe..





Ubuntu (Linux for Human Beings!)... am learning to love it!

Samba, terminal, nautilus... blah blah.. I beginning to really like what i am doing in my Ubuntu desktop. :D it makes me think creatively of how to be able to load some programs in my 'puter. Sometimes it forces me to be very very very patient and wait for ICT to be free in order to answer some of my questions... some other times, it forces me to settle with what's on the net! hahahaha

Funny but it is really a very good learning experience, I should say.

I am trying to install ENVY, so I can maximize my video card, or so George (ICT wiz!) says.
So much for today, got tons of things to do...

till my next post!

True Freedom

True Freedom

February 4, 2007

As a squadron commander, I find myself sometimes in the position of coaching young adults on the difference between freedom and license. It is not a distinction the world teaches them; in fact, some would argue that society works very hard to blur the distinction.

Freedom is the ability to choose what is good for us; license is defined as excessive freedom which prevents us from choosing what is good for us. Some even call that condition enslavement. It is no coincidence that licentiousness (immorality, especially in sexual immorality) shares the same root word with license.

As Christians, we have often heard the familiar quote from St John's Gospel, "And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free" (Jn 8:32), but do we really understand what that means? The Catechism of the Catholic Church reveals that Man's freedom is rooted in his being made in the image and likeness of God:

God created man a rational being, conferring on him the dignity of a person who can initiate and control his own actions. "God willed that man should be 'left in the hand of his own counsel,' so that he might of his own accord seek his Creator and freely attain his full and blessed perfection by cleaving to him" (#1730).

 Note that this definition emphasizes that freedom means that Man is able to make the choice for good, rather than the enslavement to choose only those things that hurts us. True freedom means being able to seek God and not be hindered in our relationship with him.

As a military officer, I am often called upon to remind my airmen that the Air Force doesn't set standards of behavior to hinder their freedom. Rather, we set standards of behavior to keep them safe and healthy, ready to accomplish our mission...and to have the defense of our countrymen in our hands is a serious responsibility indeed. When airmen violate those standards, leaders must do their duty and hold them accountable; that is justice. The repercussions for violating military standards range from minor to severe, depending on the offense, and always entail some sort of consequences to the offender like a fine, extra duty, or loss of a stripe.

The same is true for God's Law. As a Good Father, He loves us and wants the best for us. In His Word He told us to "choose life" (Duet 30:19), that in following His way we can receive the abundant life (Jn 10:10) He offers us. By following Jesus Christ, we have the freedom to turn away from sin and can break the enslavement that sinfulness places on us. He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life, and through His sacrifice on the Cross we are freed from the darkness that sin covers us in. By violating God's Law, we receive the just rewards for our disobedience: unhappiness and ill health (both spiritual and sometimes even physical). As St Paul famously said, "The wages of sin is death" (Rom 6:23).

This is not the voice of the world however, as I am consistently reminded when I look out into "popular culture." From the music on the airways, to the magazine rack at the grocers, to the television programs that are offered daily, the world seeks to tell us, "go ahead, you'll be free if you do these things, it won't hurt a thing." It's the same lie that the serpent told Eve in the Garden, "You certainly will not die! No, God knows well that the moment you eat of it your eyes will be opened and you will be like gods who know what is good and what is bad" (Gen 3:4-5).

I'm reminded of this lie every time I see an ad for artificial contraceptives on television — they always show a beautiful young woman "liberated" by the drugs she's taken to suppress her fertility. What the ad doesn't show is the broken spirit from being used to satisfy men's needs at her own expense, and the toll on her psyche from denying the part of her that makes her uniquely a woman, her ability to carry new life within her body. Her freedom has been suppressed in order to make her chemically sterile. By accepting the world's view of "freedom", she has been enslaved to the sorrow that follows.

The Catechism continues:

Freedom is the power, rooted in reason and will, to act or not to act, to do this or that, and so to perform deliberate actions on one's own responsibility. By free will one shapes one's own life. Human freedom is a force for growth and maturity in truth and goodness; it attains its perfection when directed toward God, our beatitude (#1731).

When we exercise our true freedom, rather than the license of the world, we are able to choose life as God offers. In the process we grow in holiness, and become more fully human as our Father in Heaven had in mind. To be human is to be free, and to be free is to be closer to God.

And that's the whole point.

Shifting to a new world...

I have officially moved over to the other world... I have junked (well, not really!) my Windows OS in favor of the Linux OS... Ubuntu.

Thanks to George of ICT, I'm learning to love how to use this thing.

More updates soon, I promise.

Friends Ko to!

Last night was a blast! I met with my 3 beautiful friends (so 4 na kami beautiful), at Belly's Grill. It may be the last dinner with all four of us present as Haezel is bound to leave for Dubai on Feb 7.

It was a night full of surprises, well, for Bamba anyway (or anyhoots, as she calls it!). She was the last to know of my condition... but Bam, definitely you'll be one of the ninangs! ;) And Haezel too. It was funny. Her (Bamba) reaction that is! I mean, really I did not intend to not let her know, it was just I am so uncomfortable to let her know the great news over the phone or YM, so I opted to wait until we met personally.

These people are three of my personal favorites. All has different personalities, and I mean, all three! Haezel, the ever "tarong" person. Chantal, the noisy and makulit and very bossy personality. And Bamba, well, the ever yellow, ever smiling and charming lady that she is. They are all unique! But mind you, whenever we get together, expect a very noisy table beside you... ANd expect that group to be there until the store closes...

Haay, when will this happen again? I hope soon? In Hong Kong perhaps? At maghasik tayo ng lagim natin dun? Ayt?!

Rain

I have never seen more rain in my life save for the last two days. Thank goodness the sun is already up (this afternoon) today. It was already cold last week, with temperature that ranges from 22-24C (71-75F) until this morning, i hope this will last till Friday, not the rain but the cold temperature. It is not always that we experience such cold weather in the Philippines! It is always, hot and hotter!

But still I thank God for sending only this to us here. It was on the news that Jakarta has been experiencing too much rain for the past week. And they are under chest deep of water from I don't know when. haaay..

It's almost a month now that Bowits flew to Canada. We're in constant communication. We always talk on the phone. But I do the calling rather than him. Or we exchange text messages. But the miss factor really is there. I miss having him by my side... always asking to be massaged, or held.. or anything... for water perhaps? Even if I find it quite annoying at times, I still do miss those times.

I saw one of his basketball playmates one afternoon bringing a ball from a recent game they had... oh how i miss those times when he'd ask me to just stay at home to wait for him to come back.. usually after 2 hours of play. Then when he do return, all sweaty man that he is (ew!).. he'd brag how he became the hero of the game! Haaay, boys will always be boys.

Today is supposed to be tita Grace's bday. In canada, in a few hours time... oh, it's already her bday (its already 1AM in canada as of press time).

Haaay... waiting was not a very good personal virtue... I am getting good at it though... Thank God!