Prayer

When I called mama yesterday I was surprised to hear her sounding very sick.  Well, it is kinda wet back home.  Being in the tropical region, you just get wet and wetter season.  This time of the year, it rains a lot. So getting colds is fairly common.  As with mama, she still goes to work so she's a bit susceptible to getting whatever virus and sometimes her system is down.  Anyway, so she was sick, so I asked if she took the time off and rest, that was what I would have done.  She didn't.  Why wasn't I surprised?  And when I asked why, well, she didn't want to stay home because Andy might get infected too.

Oh. That's really sweet.  Really.  Andy, being her, was too hard headed to listen to mama.  She'd taunt you about whatever you ask her not to do, she'll completely do the opposite.  Even when I called and told her not to go near mama, she threw the phone and said she will. Haaay.

Tonight though, when I had a chance to talk to mama, I heard a better/ cuter story.  When they slept yesterday, mama didn't sleep on her bed (with the baby) and stayed on the other room.  This got Andy worried.  She practically prayed like this, "Lord, pagalingin mo na ubo ni mama, pati sipon para tabi na kami uli"  and kept telling mama, I love you until she slept.

Well, prayers of kids are powerful. Mama's well. And andy learned the value of prayer. Thank you Lord!

To My Mama

Mama,

I know you'll probably get tons of text messages on Sunday. With all those free texting promos at home. Surely, it's a shame not to use it, especially on mother's day. I want to be different. I'll do what you think I am good at. I'll write.

Let me start off by thanking you.

Not because you have brought the three of us well, that was a given for you. It seemed very natural for you to do that. But for setting as an example to us. I remember very well when you talked to me when I was probably just 11 or 12. We were washing our clothes then. Papa did something really awful, you told me you wanted him to leave.   I have seen you cry so many nights before that so I thought it was for the best. I did not realize though that that would be a turning point for me.  To stand up and make decisions for myself even if it means almost breaking myself.  You taught me how to be strong, as a person.  To stand up in the midst of all the problems.

To be self sufficient.  Not to be a burden to others.  When I had to finish my Elementary years in a private school, when both my brother and sister had to transfer because we barely had enough to get by day by day, you told me you will never ever be a burden to others.  It stuck to me.  Even up to this day.  I will never be a burden to you or to others.  Not even to my daughter.

Above all to trust God to guide us in every decision we make.  This probably is the best lesson you have imparted us.  I know we are not like others who are so active in church, we are not even half of what Mama Lily was when she was alive.  But you have taught me that above all we have to call on to God in everything that we do.

As I am also going through the journey of being a mother, I hope I too will leave a positive impact to my daughter as you have been to me.  I may be away right now, and I am grateful that you have taken what should have been my responsibility in raising Andy, but I will be back and be a mother to my little one too.

I love you mama and I thank God He gave me to you.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Happy Valentine's day!



She is my Valentine.

How hard it is

Today I saw my friend get hurt. It was not simply seeing her "get hurt". It was as if I was seeing myself in her not so long ago.

I thought, so this is how they felt when I broke down infront of them it was probably too hurting on their side. As what I felt when I saw my bff cried. I couldn't help but be sad and hurt for her as well. I cannot do anything for it wasn't my relationship in the first place. I just can be here to support.

Always. As you had been and is always are until this moment.

How to get rid of an ex. [one of the best articles I read on this matter!]

MAU-RK! Mabuhay kayo. how to get rid of an ex

i should not be writing this but i must. i am not a mobile person, and I keep on forgetting my mobile phone, and when I got home I saw a message asking this question. HOW TO GET RID OF AN EX?

Well first and first foremost, let us go back to the basics. Let us draw the principles of an EX(may it be lover or something else). The basic definition of an ex is:

The prefix ex- first appeared in English words in the Middle English in words borrowed from French. It comes from the Latin where it was both a prefix and a preposition. Later in the Middle English period it became a productive prefix. It is akin to Ancient Greek (εκ-, εχ-, εχω-). Its meaning ranges from

• 1. "out, away" (example (exit)
• 2. "up" (abstract meaning indicating increase or strengthening of a particular quality, often negative - sometimes called intensive) (example (exaggeration, exacerbate)
• 3. "former, prior" (examples (ex-boyfriend, ex-president) This is a much later development and did not exist in Latin.

-wikipedia.org-

So for the basic sense of the word it is a former. So how would you get rid of the former MAU? Hmmm, hold your horses guys and gals... hooo. The simple answer is WE CAN NOT! And please dont laugh... tell me how can you get rid of something you can not see? But please be reminded that this is only applicable to those normal cases... it is a case to case basis. and if you have a different scenario, please contact Joe D' Mango or Dr. Love, I could not help you. Or maybe I could but it might take ages before I could brew a perfect formula.

But if you're question is how to forget an ex, or maybe how to eradicate her/him out of your routinary semi Pentium 1 system. Here are some things you could do.

keep your thoughts sane, rearrange your room(if you have one), by doing this you could see a different point of view. Its like reformatting your Operating System in your brain, by rearranging your room please dont forget to take things that would remind you of your ex. Please be reminded you are taking things that reminds you of your ex not because you antagonizing or your angry. ANGER is the last thing you want to feel while your doing this.

If you dont want to that, here's another tip, pick up a new hobby, change your lifestyle , do something that you have never done before. Collecting Garbage and recycling is a healthy habit, its something I am certain we dont normally do, by doing this we change not only our life but the mother earth's life span. Okay, if your thinking I am being silly then take something that you have never done before. BUT REMEMBER DO SOMETHING FOR THE BETTER. IF it will end you up in a MENTAL ASYLUM or JAIL then please don't do it. A diversion of attention can make a great difference

Fine you still feel lonely and helpless, then here's another option. Go make friends, or get reunited with past friendships, or relive your Former childhood "BARKADA" bonding moments. Just be certain of something, that your not placing your ex as an excuse to use the time of these people. Because if you do your only placing yourself in a circumstance where you are living life for a shadow of a non existent FORMER. and if you are on your low moments you are vulnerable to unnecessary temptations. AND I KNOW YOU DINT WANT TO DO THAT. Well if you want... then ITS UP TO YOU... JUST DONT COME BACK TO ME OR TO YOUR FRIENDS IF YOUR IN ANOTHER SH*T. Remember your ex is not your oxygen, you can live without him/her by your side. Its a habit of seeing or being with her/him, and all habits can be break. Hard...but it is possible.

And if everything doesn't seem to work, and you still feel that you love/ need that person. Then Gamble a little more. Push Your limits until you could give no more. Its like a diarrhea, when you dont have anything more to give then that's it.. no matter how you try, thats it. No more. Its like trying hard to puff a smoke from a cigarette left only with its filter, and that's it. But there is no harm in trying though. But dont push hard when it says pull. Learn to stop when you see RED. it means your bleeding .

okay, I will not include the thing about looking for a new relationship. change is a constant thing. Its part of the cycle. it could and might happen. one way or the other. DONT FORCE TO UPLOAD A NEW PROGRAM TO A system that is incompatible. it will never run..

the bottom line is this... no matter what we do the only time can tell. we can never forget someone who was part of our life, no matter what, they exist in the past. no matter how good or bad the relationship is, you would remember them one way or the other.

lesson number one, we can not get rid of an ex... they are already gone. lesson number two, to move on out of a relationship is create change. lesson number three, do some diversion. lesson number four reunite within people. lesson number five dont push when it says pull.

and for the major rules...the only way to move on is watch the clock/calendar... only time heals all kinds of wound. there is no best remedy for longing but wanting... but wanting is superficial feeling. we just created this force because we got used to this feeling that we are being needed.. and we needed that other person. but after the break up its all wanting...

not love itself but the habit of being there.

oh well i guess i made a lot of circles, and i made my point clear. just imagine... if i replied through text message it might have cost me so much.

loving and losing is part of the deal.. nobody said its easy.

darkmau

MALAYA!

-from the man in the fridge-

Tags: maurixio, contemplations, man in the fridge

I refuse to...

This is an apt description of what I have gone through, going through! shet! nung binasa ko to parang, yikes! nabasa ata ng babaeng ito ang aking pinagdadaanan... heheh..

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I refuse to I refuse to wait for you any longer. There was a time in my life when I would have saved myself for you alone. In my heart no one else would do. I belonged to no one else but you. That isn’t me anymore. My heart finally caught up with my brain and I finally saw that all of it was just nothing but fantasies. Dreams that only I wanted. There was no hope left for us. As each day passed, it became clearer to me that it was never meant to be. We were never meant to be. I refuse to live in the past. What we shared lives in the past, it doesn’t control me any longer. Don’t get me wrong, I will forever treasure it but I won’t let it hold me back. I won’t let it ruin who I was and who I am now. For a time, I almost forgot who I was without you. I’ll never let that happen again. I won’t ever lose myself again. I refuse to fight anymore. For several months now, I’ve been fighting. I’ve been fighting for our friendship and for us. However, no matter what I do, I seem to be losing. Whenever I feel as if I’m going to buckle down because of the pressure, the thought that somehow maybe you are fighting for us too kept me going. But months have passed, I haven’t heard from you. Somehow I finally realized that I was the only one fighting for us. I was doing everything I could possibly can for someone who was and never will be mine. I refuse to believe that you didn’t love me. Somehow, someway, I know that I have a place in your heart. You may not have been able to love me the way I wanted you to love me but I know that even for just a second, you really did love me. I refuse to lose hope. It may not be you. It may take me forever to find him, but I will. Tears have been streaming down my cheeks for too long but not anymore. I have learned so many things from all this. Things that I felt should have been taught to me some other less painful way but somehow I don’t regret it. It made me stronger. It made me look inside myself and really see who I really am and not who I thought I was. Hope kept me going. The hope for better things to come, the same hope that one day I will finally be over you.

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Letting God...

I have fought many times for my love. But I guess dadating ka rin sa point na tama na. Suko na. Nagpapakatanga na. Matagal na akong tanga sa kanya... Honest. Ang daming kaibigan ko ang gusto akong sabunutan... Eh sa mahal ko yung tao eh... Wala kayong magagawa.

Heto galing sa isang kaibigan. Salamat!

After A While

After a while, you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't mean security,

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts.
And presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats
With the grace of God, not the grief of a child,

And you learn to build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans,
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight
And after a while you learn

That even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure ...
That you really are strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn and learn ...
And with every goodbye, you learn.


By Veronica A. Shoffstall

http://www.angelrays.com/Cards/star/after/awhile.html