When I was in High School I always dream of going abroad to work. I saw families who had one or two relatives who's out there earning dollars had a good life. Back then a "good" life was they have more than what I always had.
Now as I prepare myself to be ready to leave and face a new challenge in my life I begin to wonder. What is a good life?
I will be leaving to some other country and work my ass off for, I dunno, say 5 or 10 years, and leave behind a beautiful princess. It is a cost I have to pay. A consequence to a promise I thought would be kept but later on broken.
A good or better life?
I can actually stay and give what I can offer my precious little girl and my family too. But she doesn't deserve any hardship. She doesn't deserve anything less than what I can offer. She deserves to have more. She deserves the best. Better life means going to school and not worry about where to get your money to buy books and all those school supplies. Get the best education (meaning, not just the public/free education). Get the best food on the table (not just some viand now and the same tomorrow, and the next day). Pay off the house. Raise the college fund.
Tears
When I leave, it won't be long, I promise (whisper to andie). You have to wait for me. Enjoy being a kid and let me be your provider.
Walker or no walker
Andie is beginning to crawl - fast. She has been since about 2 months ago. Now, she scoots to wherever corner of the bed she wants to so fast that 1 second she is with me on one side, the next she heading towards or nearing the other edge of the bed.
I better start hiding all those loose books, stuff we have in the sala so I can put andie down on the floor and let her explore on her own. She stands up now too! Actually she has started standing up without really passing on how to sit down (on her own).
I think it’s ok though. Andie is a very very observant little girl. She loves watching Dora the explorer. And every time the Intro song is sang, she’d quickly stand up (with me holding her up) and dance or jump up and down as if getting excited. If she’s not dancing, you’d really notice that she is excited because you will feel her heartbeat beating faster. Haay, i remember those times when I would visit my OB Gyn for my monthly visits and she’ll use a dopler to listen to Andie’s heartbeat. How time flies!
Anyway, my mom and I has began discussing on the possibility of me buying Andie a walker. Initially I really want to. I think all kids I know of had one. I too had one. But with all the reading and some people telling me not to buy a typical walker lest I teach the baby to be lazy — walkers like these make the baby just fly around the room instead of letting them use their legs to really practice walking. If ever I do buy says another, I better buy those native ones, where there ain’t no wheels, made of rattan wood and the baby will really have to literally WALK. Just like the walker used by older people.
Decisions decisions. That’ll be over 1000pesos too if ever I buy one. hmmm. thinking…
