Loving Living and Learning

Nobody said loving is easy. It never is and never will it be. Maswerte ang mga taong nakakita ng love of their lives na super in love sa kanila... at ganun din siya sa partner. My case? I would say kung every hurt I get I get paid, pucha, milyonaryo na ata ako ngayon!

I always said na loving is a choice. I chose to love the man who gave me such a beautiful daughter. I chose to love him inspite of his shortcomings (note, kanya lang! I beleive I was super faithful... supportive etc). And what did i get? Fcuk!

Pero sa totoo lang, I would not say na di ko na siya mahal.. Siguro ito yung mahirap sa "you choose to love him, than letting it just be "falling in love" " Patawarin siya? Ewan ko... Baka. Ayoko magsalita ng patapos. Ganun ko siya kamahal. Ganon ako kagago.

Sige lang. Tuloy ang buhay. Sa amin ni raissa nga, "the best things are yet to come". Friend, parating na yung sa iyo. Ako, dumating na... nakidapo pa sa ibang pugad...

I don't know how to end this... Ang daming tumatakbo sa utak ko. Last night I wasn't able to sleep...

-- I would like to share this YM conversation with a friend though.

--if a person loves another person, it would be unwise to love him(for your case) for your sake.
6:14 PM don't u love him because u choose to love him?
--o continue to choose to love him until he either: 1. reciprocates it back, 2. rejects that love. walang talo kung ganito magmahal ang mga tao...
--when #1 happens, eh di galeng. when #2 happens, the person loving shouldnt feel sad, but thankful that the beloved had enough dignity to say so(and dapat backed up ito by something reasonable)
--we can choose to love everytime, and that means to give ourselves a"hard" time, yes, but our hearts beat when we choose to let it beat, and when it does, doesn't it "feel" great?") don't u feel happy just by loving? knowing that u are actually in love? pag na reciprocate, mas masaya nga, pero kahit habang hindi pa binabalik, masaya ka na dapat
--from a friend na commited na kay God
-- iba na nag point of view niya sa matters of the heart