It’s past 10 and I am not allowed to stand up from my hospital bed. My water is already leaking, or so they say. And this means I am totally not allowed to leave the bed, not even to pee. Imagine, after about 25 years of going to the bowl to pee, I now have to pee using a bed pan, what?! Yeah, s#*t happens! hahahah…
Mind you, I pleaded my case. I told the nurses that I can still carry myself, pains are still far apart (yeah right!). But it was a futile exercise. I was not allowed to leave my bed, that’s my OB’s orders nurse says. So there I was, in bed, almost 11pm, they gave me an IV so the water won’t dry out until I am fully dilated. The nurse there also gave me a sedative for me to sleep, I will be needing the strength she tells me so I have to sleep and save it.
I awoke to a very very painful back. I looked at the watch inside the room and it says 2AM. Geesh, I slept for about two hours and now I am fully awake because of this agonizing pain. I tell you, it is painful. Very very painful.
It was sharp and it’s from my back. I can’t begin to describe how it really feels actually. It is just that… painful. So painful I could begin swearing. But Thea’s reminder kept ringing to my ears, “Dom maski unsa mahitabo, poise! As in, poise in the middle of the pain, poise sa pag ire, basta poise. Remember dili ka tabangan sa mga nurse ug mga tao didto ug magsige ka arte.” So even if I was really thrusting my butt forward (because of pain), I was like… hmmm… and biting my lips to contain the pain. At about 3am I asked my student nurse to go find a doctor so I can be checked. The pain has doubled, tripled or quadrupled and I think I cannot hold back my baby from pushing it forward.
A few minutes after, I saw the resident put on her gloves and now positioning herself to check me. Then she said, 6cms. I was like, what?! That resident reminded me not to push since I still have 4 cms to wait on to and that whatever pain that I may feel I should just breathe and try not to push, hold it in. Haaaaaaaa…. I was now crying out to God, it is so painful. Super painful and I don’t think I can endure it a minute, let alone hours more.
About an hour and a half after I was really in pain, I asked the students to go call a nurse so I can ask for additional sedative or anything that can at least help me with the pain… I cannot forget my line that instant, “Nurse, please do something about the pain…” hahahah… In active labor and I can coherently ask my nurse to do something about my labor pains! She just told me, “Only epidural can be given to you since we already gave you a sedative last night, it will be very bad for the baby…” Oh… epidural.. how much is that?, I asked. 7-10K. I was reeling… I cannot afford it.. I will be needing every peso saved. So I was like, please, rub my back! wahahaha!
At about 4:30AM, the pain has escalated. And this time, I really think holding back the andie is already impossible. I can feel that it is really time to push her out. Otherwise, Andie will push herself out of my tummy! One of the PGI (Post Graduate Intern) was awake, I asked him to check if it is possible for me to deliver the baby now. Yes, you read it correctly, the PGI is male. At this point, I really do not care as long as I get the baby out, male or not, just check me! That PGI was like, are you sure? “The other lady doctors are asleep…” I just told him, please… check! Okay, he was getting ready, he wore his gloves and when he was about to have me ready, a lady doctor came in. (And by God, he was like, thank goodness!) hahaha…
Okay here goes… pain has escalated since last night. I am ready to push… And… The lady doc (I really don’t know her name… sorry!) announced, 10cms, ready na ito! I was, thank you Lord!
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