Tears

Every weekend when I get to get online I look forward to hearing and seeing, if possible the little girl I left behind. Today I was lucky to catch her on such a happy mood.

Cousin Eli (aunt to Andee) gladly went online for me to have the baby talk to her mom.

Hearing and seeing her so excited to see me actually tore my heart. It's such sweet torture to see tears brimming on her eyes (not yet wiped) and asked her why the tears... my cousin said that because "mommy's line went dead, that's why". How can a mother bear such an innocent child's plea for her mommy to see her?

It broke my heart and whatever stance I have of vowing for a better future for her. A future without her with me is much bleaker than this.