I began this year
thinking that
just as the year before
It would pass by
oh so fast.
I was both right
and wrong.
First few weeks
it was as if I wanted
to rub back home.
I was so bored.
A month later
I managed to entangle
myself to so much work
That days and weeks
felt as if it were
merely hours.
Now, 10 months into
my working year
I am so tired.
I sometimes think about
going home for good
for so many times.
But when I think that
I am about to cross the
finish line,
the end of my
three year contract.
I take a deep breath
whisper a prayer
to extend my patience
and my resolve.
Malapit na
Sa susunod na 9 weeks, makikita ko na uli ang pamilya ko. Excited na uli akong makauwi. Sino ba naman ang hindi? Lahat ng OFW malamang ito ang panahon na hinihintay. Seryoso. Wala naman kasing gustong malayo sa kanilang pamilya.
Di lang ako ang excited. Pati ang maliit na bata na naghihintay sa Davao ay excited din. Malapit na kasi siyang pumasok, at ipinangako ko na maghahanap kami ng mga schools kung saan siya pwedeng pumasok.
Sa pag uwi ko medyo marami akong worries. Sa susuond na 9 weeks, pag natapos na to, higit kumulang 9 months na lang din ang bubunuin ko para matapos ang kontrata sa kasalukuyan kong kumpanya.
Ang damin tanong. Minsan ayaw ko na mag isip para lang matakasan. Haaay. Wala ng saysay ang sinusulat ko... Hanggang sa muli.
Di lang ako ang excited. Pati ang maliit na bata na naghihintay sa Davao ay excited din. Malapit na kasi siyang pumasok, at ipinangako ko na maghahanap kami ng mga schools kung saan siya pwedeng pumasok.
Sa pag uwi ko medyo marami akong worries. Sa susuond na 9 weeks, pag natapos na to, higit kumulang 9 months na lang din ang bubunuin ko para matapos ang kontrata sa kasalukuyan kong kumpanya.
Ang damin tanong. Minsan ayaw ko na mag isip para lang matakasan. Haaay. Wala ng saysay ang sinusulat ko... Hanggang sa muli.
November
She's grown. She's really grown. Every week when I get to talk to her it seems that she's already grown so much I haven't even noticed. What happened to the baby I left behind? Now, she talks as if she's an adult (maybe because she's surrounded by them).
She is sick today, after mama's hospitalization Andy being sick of colds and cough is a small thing. I don't worry too much these days. I've decided not to worry much, not because I don't but because it won't do me any good at all. I will fret, you have to give me that, but to worry I don't know. Maybe I have worried too much before I got tired.
I am excited that we're past 15 days of November. I feel that days pass quickly after the 15th. Maybe it's psychological. I just think that. Then December will come. And then January and I will be home. I miss being home. I long to be home.
Thank you November for passing by quickly.
She is sick today, after mama's hospitalization Andy being sick of colds and cough is a small thing. I don't worry too much these days. I've decided not to worry much, not because I don't but because it won't do me any good at all. I will fret, you have to give me that, but to worry I don't know. Maybe I have worried too much before I got tired.
I am excited that we're past 15 days of November. I feel that days pass quickly after the 15th. Maybe it's psychological. I just think that. Then December will come. And then January and I will be home. I miss being home. I long to be home.
Thank you November for passing by quickly.
Angry Momma!
Last night Golda told on me that Andy behaved very badly. :( She has learned how to eat well now. I am happy. But when at times when she becomes a bit greedy I begin to hate it.
The moment we were able to speak with each other, I immediately scolded her. haaay. One of the difficult parts of being away this long is not being able to be the one to discipline her the way I want. But do I really know how to?
The moment we were able to speak with each other, I immediately scolded her. haaay. One of the difficult parts of being away this long is not being able to be the one to discipline her the way I want. But do I really know how to?