Last year was a test. I took it poorly.
Talked to my hon a few minutes ago. I admit, it was fun to be talking to him even for a few minutes... (men, i spent all my prepaid credits!)
Then I called him using my budget card. Thank God for this invention. I can speak to him for a mere 3/minute. Calling other cellular phones within the country is more expensive.
Anyway, back to my topic. I really have to keep the faith on him. on us. ;)
woohoo! masayang bagong taon!
btw, did i tell you that my andie is about to have her 1st tooth? cool new year eh?
Have a blessed and faith-full 2008 everyone!
The Year that was
2007 is about to end and I cannot help but think of what happened to me whole year round.
It was an eventful year to say the least... Well, that may an understatement.
January started on a sad/ emotional note. On the 1st day, my boyfriend of 6 years (6th anniv was on jan 2) finally went to manila - en route to Canada. They are migrating there. Finally. It was a very long wait for him. In my mind, I should be happy. But I wasn't. How can you be when you really wouldn't know when you'll see each other again.
Mid Januay I had... I cannot even describe it, shock? maybe not shock, surprise perhaps. I found out I was 12-13 weeks pregnant. The thing I/we were trying to deny a month ago is really happening. The news came 4 days before his flight abroad. I wouldn't stop him... I'll do this myself. I willed myself to do it.
I faced all questions thrown at me. Told my parents, told my boss and told my staff. Those are the necessary people who I thought needed to know. They had a lot of questions, I remained firm. I am raising my baby whatever will happen to me and his/her dad (I didn't know the baby's gender yet).
On early April my grandfather, the only grandparent I had left passed away after a linger illness. It was relief for me to say the least. He has rested.
My brother moved out (But I did first on Nov 2006). He moved to Cebu to work. He has to. He needed to. And it made me proud of him. He has grown into such a wonderful young man that I thought he is. He just needed a little push.
Before April ended a good friend passed away. Too young, too beautiful to die. I, again thought how fleeting life is.
July 27, 2007, my day of reckoning. I gave birth to a very beautiful baby. My life, my precious. That day on everything changed. I was not only responsible of myself but of another human being. I never thought I would go through it, but I did. I endured the pain and felt overwhelming joy. Just looking at my baby makes me cry.
5 months has passed since I gave birth, Andrea Felice is now beginning to learn how to eat. Sometimes she'd utter different sounds, a practice perhaps of how she'd talk in the near future, or cry and look at me, as if willing me to pick her up. She's the joy that I was looking for. She's a piece of me... of Dominique.
Until now I am still
Eventful? Nah! I guess not... A lot of other people I guess has better story than mine.
It was an eventful year to say the least... Well, that may an understatement.
January started on a sad/ emotional note. On the 1st day, my boyfriend of 6 years (6th anniv was on jan 2) finally went to manila - en route to Canada. They are migrating there. Finally. It was a very long wait for him. In my mind, I should be happy. But I wasn't. How can you be when you really wouldn't know when you'll see each other again.
Mid Januay I had... I cannot even describe it, shock? maybe not shock, surprise perhaps. I found out I was 12-13 weeks pregnant. The thing I/we were trying to deny a month ago is really happening. The news came 4 days before his flight abroad. I wouldn't stop him... I'll do this myself. I willed myself to do it.
I faced all questions thrown at me. Told my parents, told my boss and told my staff. Those are the necessary people who I thought needed to know. They had a lot of questions, I remained firm. I am raising my baby whatever will happen to me and his/her dad (I didn't know the baby's gender yet).
On early April my grandfather, the only grandparent I had left passed away after a linger illness. It was relief for me to say the least. He has rested.
My brother moved out (But I did first on Nov 2006). He moved to Cebu to work. He has to. He needed to. And it made me proud of him. He has grown into such a wonderful young man that I thought he is. He just needed a little push.
Before April ended a good friend passed away. Too young, too beautiful to die. I, again thought how fleeting life is.
July 27, 2007, my day of reckoning. I gave birth to a very beautiful baby. My life, my precious. That day on everything changed. I was not only responsible of myself but of another human being. I never thought I would go through it, but I did. I endured the pain and felt overwhelming joy. Just looking at my baby makes me cry.
5 months has passed since I gave birth, Andrea Felice is now beginning to learn how to eat. Sometimes she'd utter different sounds, a practice perhaps of how she'd talk in the near future, or cry and look at me, as if willing me to pick her up. She's the joy that I was looking for. She's a piece of me... of Dominique.
Until now I am still
Eventful? Nah! I guess not... A lot of other people I guess has better story than mine.
Active once again
I haven't been writing lately. Blame it on PLDT's hell of a dsl connection. grrr!
will try my utmost to revive my blog... (if there are people reading this! hehehe)
will try my utmost to revive my blog... (if there are people reading this! hehehe)
Active Labor
Sorry for the delay...
Here's the 4th part of the whole labor story... :)
My water already leaked and I am not allowed to stand up... can you imagine... here goes the almost 4 hour ordeal. click here!
Here's the 4th part of the whole labor story... :)
My water already leaked and I am not allowed to stand up... can you imagine... here goes the almost 4 hour ordeal. click here!
Beginning of Labor Day!
I'd say it was fun during the first half. I was even allowed to walk around... talk to the people there and receive visitors when I am able to walk at the Delivery room entrance.
Going through the whole labor without any medication is something... :)
Enjoy reading my 3rd part. In Labor
Going through the whole labor without any medication is something... :)
Enjoy reading my 3rd part. In Labor
Hospital - my first admission
It is not easy to be admitted in the hospital, especially if it's you who's gonna be admitted.
But I guess it's part of the process when you give birth. Part 2 of my story.
Enjoy!
But I guess it's part of the process when you give birth. Part 2 of my story.
Enjoy!
Tales of a new mom (part 1)
As I am trying to recall every minute that went into the 16 hour labor I am writing everything on a per segment basis. ;)
check out: Tale of a new mom for part 1.
Enjoy and leave a comment! :)
check out: Tale of a new mom for part 1.
Enjoy and leave a comment! :)
Back!
It has been almost 2 months since I gave birth to a beeeyoutiful little girl... Andrea Felice. Nothing compares to the joy that it has given me.
I will be writing about her and about my whole experience... yeah, from day one when I went into labor until now... (that'll be a handful!)... I will try to. I will try to recall every detail.
So now, I am back! And I will be writing again. (bear with me! ;) )
I will be writing about her and about my whole experience... yeah, from day one when I went into labor until now... (that'll be a handful!)... I will try to. I will try to recall every detail.
So now, I am back! And I will be writing again. (bear with me! ;) )
New blog site
Hi everyone! Sorry I wasn't able to update my multiply site. I gave birth a month ago. I will be updating this in the coming days.
You may also visit http://hugsmiles.com/andie and check out my daughter's blog.
Till next time!
You may also visit http://hugsmiles.com/andie and check out my daughter's blog.
Till next time!
Almost there
It's already 39 weeks. Tomorrow. 8 days left, about a week before my Andie (to my parents and sister Andeng!) sees everyone waiting for her (or him? haha) to come out!
As the days pass, I cannot understand what I feel more, Excitement, Nervousness, Or anticipation that the current state I am in is about to end! Hahaha! I am really really really tired. At night, I dread waking up to pee, it's hell I tell you. The pain you feel all over your body, especially near your most private part... This is something I haven't experienced ever before. But wait, you almost feel that way when you exercise excessively from not doing any exercise at all.
I am eagerly waiting Andie's / Andeng's / Andrea Felice's birth date.
Tomorrow am seeing my OB-Gyn. She's gonna do an internal exam, or so she tells me... (nervous!). Everything is ready though. I hope. But am i? Andie, are you? ;)
As the days pass, I cannot understand what I feel more, Excitement, Nervousness, Or anticipation that the current state I am in is about to end! Hahaha! I am really really really tired. At night, I dread waking up to pee, it's hell I tell you. The pain you feel all over your body, especially near your most private part... This is something I haven't experienced ever before. But wait, you almost feel that way when you exercise excessively from not doing any exercise at all.
I am eagerly waiting Andie's / Andeng's / Andrea Felice's birth date.
Tomorrow am seeing my OB-Gyn. She's gonna do an internal exam, or so she tells me... (nervous!). Everything is ready though. I hope. But am i? Andie, are you? ;)
Baby Shower!
Good day! It has just been a few days since my last post. I have been getting really excited (don't you think?) with the coming baby.. hehe..
Tonight am attending a baby shower... waaaaaaaahhh!!!!!
Baby shower, what? Yup yup! Baby shower of my baby! yipee!
Cool officemates has set it up! Two of them has informed me of the shower so I will really go today otherwise I just might end up turning down the offer to go here. We're doing it at B3 barkada room. It'll gonna be a videoke shower party! or so i think.. I saw one of them making/creating some games last week... hahah! but I didn't bother asking them what it was lest everyone will think that someone already spoiled the whole thing to me. ;)
I think the time I wasn't inside the office last week (which were really often, thanks to all those meetings I had) really helped them discuss things! hahaha!
Anyway, thanks Mauro for the greetings! I hope to see you too one of these days. And I will never forget that you told RK to remind you to bring something for Andie. ;)
I am so excited! yipee! I also attended one of the boss's son's party last night. THAT was something. I know I can never afford to give my kid even a party close to that... hehe.. might as well enjoy it when I was there, and I did... I enjoyed seeing all the colors, balloons, kids, yaya's and parents enjoying the whole event (and it really was an event you know!)
Till the next post.
Tonight am attending a baby shower... waaaaaaaahhh!!!!!
Baby shower, what? Yup yup! Baby shower of my baby! yipee!
Cool officemates has set it up! Two of them has informed me of the shower so I will really go today otherwise I just might end up turning down the offer to go here. We're doing it at B3 barkada room. It'll gonna be a videoke shower party! or so i think.. I saw one of them making/creating some games last week... hahah! but I didn't bother asking them what it was lest everyone will think that someone already spoiled the whole thing to me. ;)
I think the time I wasn't inside the office last week (which were really often, thanks to all those meetings I had) really helped them discuss things! hahaha!
Anyway, thanks Mauro for the greetings! I hope to see you too one of these days. And I will never forget that you told RK to remind you to bring something for Andie. ;)
I am so excited! yipee! I also attended one of the boss's son's party last night. THAT was something. I know I can never afford to give my kid even a party close to that... hehe.. might as well enjoy it when I was there, and I did... I enjoyed seeing all the colors, balloons, kids, yaya's and parents enjoying the whole event (and it really was an event you know!)
Till the next post.
Full Term -- take 2
I just came back from my OB-Gyn. I am already full term! geesh! how many times should I announce it? hahaha!
Well, I guess I am just too excited not to keep it to myself. Or am I just so happy that I and Andie have come this far knowing her (i think the baby is a she really) dad is at the opposite side of the world.
Doc gave me a slip for the hospital already. I shouldn't lose it. Or I better memorize everything that's written on it! haaay!
37 weeks. I am to go back to the doc once again if ever Andie decides not to make her appearance to the world in the next week.
I think she is getting ready to check out from hotel-mom already. She has been squirming often... and making these funny contractions as well as settling really down there... (moms know what i mean!)
Well, I guess I am just too excited not to keep it to myself. Or am I just so happy that I and Andie have come this far knowing her (i think the baby is a she really) dad is at the opposite side of the world.
Doc gave me a slip for the hospital already. I shouldn't lose it. Or I better memorize everything that's written on it! haaay!
37 weeks. I am to go back to the doc once again if ever Andie decides not to make her appearance to the world in the next week.
I think she is getting ready to check out from hotel-mom already. She has been squirming often... and making these funny contractions as well as settling really down there... (moms know what i mean!)
Full Term!
I am now on my 37th week. All books and internet write up is telling me that I am on the super final stretch. I am in full term. Anytime I go into labor bebi Andie (Andit daw sabi ni mama!) will be okay.
Am I ready? Am I? Am I?
I better be! I am feeling quite tired most of the time. If I can get away with it, I do not walk. I swear, Andie's getting heavier every minute that passes. Even getting up in the middle of the night makes me feel tired. If only I can pass the night without peeing! grrr! Where are you when I need you the most?! haaay!
We already bought additional things for Andie... all except for the feeding bottles is ready. I already told you about the crib. I hope my aunt will bring it home anytime.
I went back to Metroville yesterday to get some documents I need for something I have to do.
I am still praying and talking to Andie to stay a bit longer there, say 2 more weeks? I still have a meeting next week when my boss arrives, so I better be here. hehe.
Till the next post!
Am I ready? Am I? Am I?
I better be! I am feeling quite tired most of the time. If I can get away with it, I do not walk. I swear, Andie's getting heavier every minute that passes. Even getting up in the middle of the night makes me feel tired. If only I can pass the night without peeing! grrr! Where are you when I need you the most?! haaay!
We already bought additional things for Andie... all except for the feeding bottles is ready. I already told you about the crib. I hope my aunt will bring it home anytime.
I went back to Metroville yesterday to get some documents I need for something I have to do.
I am still praying and talking to Andie to stay a bit longer there, say 2 more weeks? I still have a meeting next week when my boss arrives, so I better be here. hehe.
Till the next post!
Mixed feelings
I am already 36 weeks pregnant (officially yesterday!). And honestly, I do not know what I feel more, excited or being nervous of the coming D-day! whoooo!
honestly honestly! I am so nervous. I'd be doing this on my own. Well, parents will be there, but I really doubt if mama will go in the labor room with me lest she passes out before I do! hahaha!
My OB-GYN, Dr. Estuart has already scheduled for me to see her every week beginning next week, am to see her on the 11th or 12th, whenever she'll be there! Then the week after that, then the next! Haaay!
I have already prepared the money... (coming this pay day) although am really praying that it'd be enough. Andie's clothes need washing- no problem yaya jane will do that! Crib will be sent from my aunt's home. (she's giving me one!) and the family heirloom crib has been found! yey!
Yes, it is a family heirloom. It was first used by my youngest uncle (Papa's youngest bro), then passed on to me? then to brother, then my younger sister... then a lot of the cousins have used it. It took us more than 3 months looking for the crib, and alas! thank God, it's found once again. We have to check if it needs repainting and re-furnishing though.
This weekend my mama and I are gonna buy the other baby stuff that needs to be stocked as of now. So we have to get our purse ready! haaay!
Oh well... I have been cleaning and cleaning and cleaning the house nowadays! hahaha... Hon's house (our room) is already clean but we are coming back on saturday to clean it again. I am living at my parents house since last weekend you see. My parents want me there where they can see me in case I go into early labor.
I hope to post more notes before I give birth. Wish me luck! ;)
honestly honestly! I am so nervous. I'd be doing this on my own. Well, parents will be there, but I really doubt if mama will go in the labor room with me lest she passes out before I do! hahaha!
My OB-GYN, Dr. Estuart has already scheduled for me to see her every week beginning next week, am to see her on the 11th or 12th, whenever she'll be there! Then the week after that, then the next! Haaay!
I have already prepared the money... (coming this pay day) although am really praying that it'd be enough. Andie's clothes need washing- no problem yaya jane will do that! Crib will be sent from my aunt's home. (she's giving me one!) and the family heirloom crib has been found! yey!
Yes, it is a family heirloom. It was first used by my youngest uncle (Papa's youngest bro), then passed on to me? then to brother, then my younger sister... then a lot of the cousins have used it. It took us more than 3 months looking for the crib, and alas! thank God, it's found once again. We have to check if it needs repainting and re-furnishing though.
This weekend my mama and I are gonna buy the other baby stuff that needs to be stocked as of now. So we have to get our purse ready! haaay!
Oh well... I have been cleaning and cleaning and cleaning the house nowadays! hahaha... Hon's house (our room) is already clean but we are coming back on saturday to clean it again. I am living at my parents house since last weekend you see. My parents want me there where they can see me in case I go into early labor.
I hope to post more notes before I give birth. Wish me luck! ;)
Feeling really great at almost 35 weeks
Yes, you read it right. At 35 weeks (next week) and counting.. weeee! I am getting a bit excited, well very excited actually. Today I had my hair cut after i dunno, 3 months? hehehe.. good thing the stylist is my usual one and knew what I really wanted.
When I got home, the "nesting" instinct is beginning to creep in. Really. I cleaned the room! hehehe... well, i do clean the room, but this time i changed sheets... and am sending my things (laundry) and andie's stuff to my mama's house. We'll be staying there after I give birth.
So there.. I'll be busy for the next week with work and a lot of stuff.
When I got home, the "nesting" instinct is beginning to creep in. Really. I cleaned the room! hehehe... well, i do clean the room, but this time i changed sheets... and am sending my things (laundry) and andie's stuff to my mama's house. We'll be staying there after I give birth.
So there.. I'll be busy for the next week with work and a lot of stuff.
My Sweetest Downfall...
I just thought I liked this song. Thoughts on this on later posts.
SAMSON
Regina Spektor
You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met
Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
And history books forgot about us and the bible didn't mention us
The bible didn't mention us, not even once
You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first , I loved you first
Beneath the stars came falling on our heads
But there just soft light, there just soft light
Your hair was long when we first met
Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
He told me i was beautiful and came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors and the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
and kissed me till the morning light, the morning light
and he kissed me till the morning light
Samson came back to bed
not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
Oh, we couldn't bring the columns down
Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one
And history books forgot about us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once
You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first
SAMSON
Regina Spektor
You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met
Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
And history books forgot about us and the bible didn't mention us
The bible didn't mention us, not even once
You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first , I loved you first
Beneath the stars came falling on our heads
But there just soft light, there just soft light
Your hair was long when we first met
Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
He told me i was beautiful and came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors and the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
and kissed me till the morning light, the morning light
and he kissed me till the morning light
Samson came back to bed
not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
Oh, we couldn't bring the columns down
Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one
And history books forgot about us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once
You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first
31 weeks and counting
Today I went to my OB-Gyn. Time for the monthly Pre-natal visit.
Armed with the results of the Hepatitis B test and the Hemoglobin Check off I went to Quirino Doctors Clinic.
I was supposed to see the doc yesterday, but alas,as fate would intervene, she was out somewhere, maybe someone was in Labor? heheh... Good thingie too that I was rescheduled today since there are not as many patients today, well, not too many when I arrived. So waiting was not as long as before. (imagine waiting for an hour just to be seen by the doc).
I weighed in at 136.5Lbs, last month was 131Lbs. Doc says it's not too much since I have only gained about 29 Lbs from the first visit on January BUT, a big BUT, I have to watch the weight from now on. I am not supposed to gain too much so giving birth would not be very hard for me. And both I and the doc are hoping for a normal delivery.
She took my blood pressure, 100/70, usual. She checked my results, Hepa B is negative, I remember having the shots when I was little, maybe that helped. Hemoglobin was a little below normal. Normal range 120 and a little beyond, mine is 116. But the doc says its about ok since the baby has to have her blood/ hemoglobin from mine. So there are two of us sharing it. But she gave me another vitamin though. I stop taking Terraferon from now on and take another vitamins. More into Iron supplement from the multi vitamins I am previously taking.
Then, my favorite part, the doc let me lie down in her examination table and checks where Baby Andie is. Seems she too is getting ready for the big day, this early! She's already head down (great work andie! I hope you won't turn a lot from now on.. so we can both be ready)... then measured my tummy (I read it is called, measuring the fundus) at 29 inches. Not bad she says. I am 31 weeks pregnant. Measurement should be almost the same as the number of weeks you are carrying the baby. at 29, Dr. Estuart says it is okay. Then she takes out her doppler and listens to the baby's heartbeat! And that is always music to my ears. Strong, steady heartbeat other than my own. She gave me my Tetanus shots too!
Diagnosis: 31 weeks pregnant, I should see her every 2 weeks now. And I should be ready by 2 weeks before August 1 since from there I can give birth anytime. nervous! hehehe...
I am seeing her by June 15 or 16.
**Facts about the baby at this time:
Your baby now weighs approximately 3.5 pounds, measures about 18 inches from head to toe, and is getting used to the world of light and dark by opening and closing its eyes. Its facial muscles continue to strengthen, and your baby can make different expressions.
Armed with the results of the Hepatitis B test and the Hemoglobin Check off I went to Quirino Doctors Clinic.
I was supposed to see the doc yesterday, but alas,as fate would intervene, she was out somewhere, maybe someone was in Labor? heheh... Good thingie too that I was rescheduled today since there are not as many patients today, well, not too many when I arrived. So waiting was not as long as before. (imagine waiting for an hour just to be seen by the doc).
I weighed in at 136.5Lbs, last month was 131Lbs. Doc says it's not too much since I have only gained about 29 Lbs from the first visit on January BUT, a big BUT, I have to watch the weight from now on. I am not supposed to gain too much so giving birth would not be very hard for me. And both I and the doc are hoping for a normal delivery.
She took my blood pressure, 100/70, usual. She checked my results, Hepa B is negative, I remember having the shots when I was little, maybe that helped. Hemoglobin was a little below normal. Normal range 120 and a little beyond, mine is 116. But the doc says its about ok since the baby has to have her blood/ hemoglobin from mine. So there are two of us sharing it. But she gave me another vitamin though. I stop taking Terraferon from now on and take another vitamins. More into Iron supplement from the multi vitamins I am previously taking.
Then, my favorite part, the doc let me lie down in her examination table and checks where Baby Andie is. Seems she too is getting ready for the big day, this early! She's already head down (great work andie! I hope you won't turn a lot from now on.. so we can both be ready)... then measured my tummy (I read it is called, measuring the fundus) at 29 inches. Not bad she says. I am 31 weeks pregnant. Measurement should be almost the same as the number of weeks you are carrying the baby. at 29, Dr. Estuart says it is okay. Then she takes out her doppler and listens to the baby's heartbeat! And that is always music to my ears. Strong, steady heartbeat other than my own. She gave me my Tetanus shots too!
Diagnosis: 31 weeks pregnant, I should see her every 2 weeks now. And I should be ready by 2 weeks before August 1 since from there I can give birth anytime. nervous! hehehe...
I am seeing her by June 15 or 16.
**Facts about the baby at this time:
Your baby now weighs approximately 3.5 pounds, measures about 18 inches from head to toe, and is getting used to the world of light and dark by opening and closing its eyes. Its facial muscles continue to strengthen, and your baby can make different expressions.
Election's up!
5AM, i woke up to pee and open the TV. Today is Mid term election in the Philippines.
And I am not voting. hahahaha... (sarcastic!) I am not able to vote since I am not registered... damn the katamaran!
Needless to say though, I really am praying that all will end well for this election.. hoping for a clean and peaceful one is really everyone's wish. Which until now remains to be one, a wish! More than that I'd say that it is a fervent prayer that change will really take place for the country.
And I am not voting. hahahaha... (sarcastic!) I am not able to vote since I am not registered... damn the katamaran!
Needless to say though, I really am praying that all will end well for this election.. hoping for a clean and peaceful one is really everyone's wish. Which until now remains to be one, a wish! More than that I'd say that it is a fervent prayer that change will really take place for the country.
Baby Update
We're having a girl! And we are naming her ANDREA FELICE. We'll call her Andie (thanks Ninang Haezel!) Ain't it pretty?
I am now 27 weeks pregnant, 13 more weeks to go. Woohoo!
Getting nervous.. hahaha...
Some fact on the baby now:
Your baby weighs approximately 2 pounds and measures about 9.6 inches from crown to rump. His or her facial features are almost fully developed and synchronizing enough that he or she may make faces that are visible on an ultrasound. Your baby’s skin is becoming thicker and fleshier and increasingly wrinkled, thanks to the amniotic fluid. The skin will remain wrinkled for the first month or so after birth – just think about how your hands or feet look after you have been in the water for just 30 minutes! During this week, the brain continues its rapid growth, and the lungs continue to develop.
**From www.pregnancyweekly.com
I am now 27 weeks pregnant, 13 more weeks to go. Woohoo!
Getting nervous.. hahaha...
Some fact on the baby now:
Your baby weighs approximately 2 pounds and measures about 9.6 inches from crown to rump. His or her facial features are almost fully developed and synchronizing enough that he or she may make faces that are visible on an ultrasound. Your baby’s skin is becoming thicker and fleshier and increasingly wrinkled, thanks to the amniotic fluid. The skin will remain wrinkled for the first month or so after birth – just think about how your hands or feet look after you have been in the water for just 30 minutes! During this week, the brain continues its rapid growth, and the lungs continue to develop.
**From www.pregnancyweekly.com
Death comes like a thief in the night
Death is a mystery.
That sentence has once again struck me just last week. A very good friend, although not really that close was taken away from us (physically that is). She passed away at 28. Very young. Just last December she was with us, enjoying the party, coming in for the meetings and all... And now,just 4 months later, we'd never see her again.
I got the news almost a few minutes after she actually passed away and honestly I could not understand what I felt that time. She was such a blessing to me and to the group I left with her.
So where did that friendship start? Maybe I can really go back to the time when all the things happening (the not so good and you'd rather forget things!) were unfolding. She was asked to take over as head of the Division I belong with (then). She became my confidant. She became a person who heard what I was about to say... Gave me advise and sent me thoughts which helped me carry on with the task at hand. It was not easy actually to give up and move over to another department. Especially during those times when I knew that she too would be having a hard time adjusting to things around her. Now, as I reflect, was the added tension/stress an addition to her suffering?
Lord, please, I hope not. :(
This much I am sure of, she is in a happier place now compared to us here. Yes, she would not be able to see and be with her family but where she is now is a place where there is no pain. No sorrow. No worry. She's with God!
Rejoice! She will rise with the Lord.
I am naming my girl with a name synonymous to hers!
Woohoo to you Gaye! You will never ever be forgotten!
That sentence has once again struck me just last week. A very good friend, although not really that close was taken away from us (physically that is). She passed away at 28. Very young. Just last December she was with us, enjoying the party, coming in for the meetings and all... And now,just 4 months later, we'd never see her again.
I got the news almost a few minutes after she actually passed away and honestly I could not understand what I felt that time. She was such a blessing to me and to the group I left with her.
So where did that friendship start? Maybe I can really go back to the time when all the things happening (the not so good and you'd rather forget things!) were unfolding. She was asked to take over as head of the Division I belong with (then). She became my confidant. She became a person who heard what I was about to say... Gave me advise and sent me thoughts which helped me carry on with the task at hand. It was not easy actually to give up and move over to another department. Especially during those times when I knew that she too would be having a hard time adjusting to things around her. Now, as I reflect, was the added tension/stress an addition to her suffering?
Lord, please, I hope not. :(
This much I am sure of, she is in a happier place now compared to us here. Yes, she would not be able to see and be with her family but where she is now is a place where there is no pain. No sorrow. No worry. She's with God!
Rejoice! She will rise with the Lord.
I am naming my girl with a name synonymous to hers!
Woohoo to you Gaye! You will never ever be forgotten!
Ultrasound... round two!
I went to my OB GYN last Thursday (April 12). That was my 4th visit (I didn't know I was pregnant until January 14!) hence the number of visits.As usual the question and answer happened. I showed her my previous month's Urine Analysis results, and it looked fine. I might as well have another before going to her by next month. She told me to get hemoglobin tests and Hepatitis B tests by next month prior to going to her for the May prenatal visit.
I weighed in 127lbs by the way. baaaaad! suppppeeeerrr baddd!!! i mean, I was supposed to gain about 4lbs only or maybe about 5 lbs max, apparently, I over estimated my eating the past holy week I guess that I gained almost double what I'm supposed to gain. huhuhuh!
Blood Pressure is steady at 110/70. Then she measured height of Fundus-- I'm not s familiar with it, but she told me it was okay, very ok i think. Lastly the heartbeat... which is the coolest thing (again...) becuase it is getting very very loud..
Baby is very active everyday. Thank God for that. By the time I wake up in the morning the baby is already up! i mean awake. and is kicking/moving around my tummy.. hehehe...
Saturday was very exciting. I had my 2nd ultrasound. It was kinda cool because I am to find out the sex of the baby. It's a girl!!! :D yahoo! I know hun will be a bit disappointed becuase he really wanted to have a baby boy.. but having a girl is not bad! It'll be exciting to raise a girl. :)
Now, the baby naming begins!
It ain't so easy after all...
I am now on my 24th week. Pregnancy I mean. Roughly 16 weeks before D-day.
And it is not very very easy. As the pregnancy progresses I am now feeling how hard it is to carry a baby inside your tummy. And I thought I could just breeze through this thing.
A lot of things has happened in the last month. I as not able to write too much because of work and other things. hehe. SO I might as well recap some of those things.
1- Just last week, my grandfather passed away. He was just 66 years old. He has been bedridden for the last 6 and 1/2 years though so I thought it was a much needed rest for him.. I'm sad that he won't see my baby be born in a few months time, but God has a purpose for us all. So I guess that his request as my uncle told us has been granted him. I'll miss him, my cousins and I will miss him for sure...
2- Two weeks ago something happened in our project team. It was not supposed to happen but when egos get touched, when you are shoved in a corner, although it was not the situation I (or we as a group) percieved it to become, I guess it has somehow became the situation with that associate. oh well, It may be a very different situation from hereon. But rest assured we will push on with what we are doing and I want it done... all of it. (before I give birth I hope!)
3- Relationship is difficult when you are apart. It is harder when one of you is pregnant. Honestly, I thought it will be easy, but it isn't. At all. Of course I am very positive that in the end of this all we'll be in each others arms, and get that happily ever after I have been praying for. I guess arriving at that point won't be easy. Nothing near to that. Sometimes, when I am home and alone inside my room, I'd really just stare at the TV set and sometimes begin to cry. A tear, buckets of it sometimes. It's sad to be alone at this point, but I would want to carry on that battle. It is not yet over, it's far from it. So far from it!
And it is not very very easy. As the pregnancy progresses I am now feeling how hard it is to carry a baby inside your tummy. And I thought I could just breeze through this thing.
A lot of things has happened in the last month. I as not able to write too much because of work and other things. hehe. SO I might as well recap some of those things.
1- Just last week, my grandfather passed away. He was just 66 years old. He has been bedridden for the last 6 and 1/2 years though so I thought it was a much needed rest for him.. I'm sad that he won't see my baby be born in a few months time, but God has a purpose for us all. So I guess that his request as my uncle told us has been granted him. I'll miss him, my cousins and I will miss him for sure...
2- Two weeks ago something happened in our project team. It was not supposed to happen but when egos get touched, when you are shoved in a corner, although it was not the situation I (or we as a group) percieved it to become, I guess it has somehow became the situation with that associate. oh well, It may be a very different situation from hereon. But rest assured we will push on with what we are doing and I want it done... all of it. (before I give birth I hope!)
3- Relationship is difficult when you are apart. It is harder when one of you is pregnant. Honestly, I thought it will be easy, but it isn't. At all. Of course I am very positive that in the end of this all we'll be in each others arms, and get that happily ever after I have been praying for. I guess arriving at that point won't be easy. Nothing near to that. Sometimes, when I am home and alone inside my room, I'd really just stare at the TV set and sometimes begin to cry. A tear, buckets of it sometimes. It's sad to be alone at this point, but I would want to carry on that battle. It is not yet over, it's far from it. So far from it!
Missing home... In Palawan
I arrived in Palawan last Monday via Air Phil from Cebu. It was a very nice trip. I almost forgot that maam nancy (dept store manager in palawan) is on the same trip as I am. So from going down of the plane (Cebu Pac from Davao) I had a nice chatmate all the way to Puerto Princessa City.
Maybe it's really the case when you are pregnant... everyone seems to be very protective of you.. heheh.. I mean, people seem to help me with anything that I carry (read: I almost do not have to carry things!) So there...
I just finished one batch of trainees here. another batch is coming in for tomorrow and friday before I finally go home to davao... to my bed (our bed, excuse me!) and to our home.
I'll be missing Araw ng Davao Celebration though. :( I hope I have some money by then so I can catch some of the sale going around the city. I might buy some baby things... hehehe...
till my next post!
Maybe it's really the case when you are pregnant... everyone seems to be very protective of you.. heheh.. I mean, people seem to help me with anything that I carry (read: I almost do not have to carry things!) So there...
I just finished one batch of trainees here. another batch is coming in for tomorrow and friday before I finally go home to davao... to my bed (our bed, excuse me!) and to our home.
I'll be missing Araw ng Davao Celebration though. :( I hope I have some money by then so I can catch some of the sale going around the city. I might buy some baby things... hehehe...
till my next post!
Counting my blessings
I am officially 26 years young... has a stable job in a fine company in the city where I grew up in... I have a very supportive family... I have a boyfriend who loves me (and i am eagerly waiting for to come back to Davao soon!)... Good health... And 5 months pregnant. Could I ask for more?
Oh... a healthy baby come Aug 1, 2007.. or earlier. ;)
Oh... a healthy baby come Aug 1, 2007.. or earlier. ;)
Authentic Leadership with Francis Kong
The company held its annual leader's gathering yesterday at the Regency Hotel... Our guest speaker was no less than Mr. Francis Kong. Renowned inspirational speaker and author of books such as Only the Real Matters, The Early Bird Catches the Worm But the Second Mouse Gets the Cheese, One Day at a Time Books 1 to 4
He's such an animated speaker. If you want to have a speaker who will not bore your audience, especially for a whole day talk he is your man!
Taught us what Authentic Leadership is all about and by golly he is a talker!
By the way, he looks like TJ Han (Korean character played by JO HYUN JAE)... And that's him with me!
This time last year...
We are being sentimental this time of the day thanks to Randi's (sweetheart ba?) iPod! It's all Filipino Music, love songs at that! Made me think of the time I was that sentimental... around this time of the year last year... But I would not want to dwell on that too much as they say It's water under the bridge.
Hearing good Filipino Music (especially love songs) makes me wonder why we always end up liking foreign music more? Just to be in the "in" crowd? nah! We're too old for that I guess.
Hearing good Filipino Music (especially love songs) makes me wonder why we always end up liking foreign music more? Just to be in the "in" crowd? nah! We're too old for that I guess.
Its freakin' hot!
The management where I work with is saving on electricity...
sO wHat enTaiLs thiS saViNg moDe?
1. 5 day work-week. This is most fun! Who would not want this? I mean, from working for 3 years or so and going to work 6 days a week, from Monday - Saturday. First Saturday without work was really so boring! And I mean boring, good thing my hun is there to get together with.. ;) But that was the only downside (hahaha)... The rest is all so fun!
2. Timed turning on and Off of Airconditioning Unit. :( this one is just newly implemented. It is so so so so so bad! I mean imagine yourself in an office where there is practically almost no window, 1 small door and 13 people (sometimes more) working inside... and temp range outside is 83-90F (28-33C) So freakin' hot ain't it?
haaay...
Will be going to Palawan after my birthday by the way. I hope to update soon.
sO wHat enTaiLs thiS saViNg moDe?
1. 5 day work-week. This is most fun! Who would not want this? I mean, from working for 3 years or so and going to work 6 days a week, from Monday - Saturday. First Saturday without work was really so boring! And I mean boring, good thing my hun is there to get together with.. ;) But that was the only downside (hahaha)... The rest is all so fun!
2. Timed turning on and Off of Airconditioning Unit. :( this one is just newly implemented. It is so so so so so bad! I mean imagine yourself in an office where there is practically almost no window, 1 small door and 13 people (sometimes more) working inside... and temp range outside is 83-90F (28-33C) So freakin' hot ain't it?
haaay...
Will be going to Palawan after my birthday by the way. I hope to update soon.
First Ultrasound
Yesterday was my second pre-natal visit. I already pre-listed the day before, I was number 5 to be seen by Dr. Darleen San Jose-Estuart my obstetrician-gynecologist.
The typical question and answer happened. Asked me if there were any pains, discharge or any abnormal thing I felt during the last month... there was none, save for the unusual contraction (or hardening of my tummy) the last few days... maybe it happens at night and once in a while during the day. It was not normal. I should be feeling a little contraction during the 5th month yet so she had me lie down her small bed and listened to the heartbeat. Just to be sure, she also requested for me to have an Ultrasound.. Oh no... I was getting nervous at this point. Who'd accompany me there? Mama is at work...yeah, Love2! she doesn't have a class on Thursdays!
So there, 2pm Love2 and I went to Brokenshire Hospital to have the ultrasound..
It was a cool thing! I saw the baby (or what seemed like it!) for the first time. It was like a tadpole! hahahaha... The doctor there showed us the head, spine, heart (beating!), feet, hands (although really small!)... And there, it's done! :D
It was one of the coolest thing.
I am 16 weeks pregnant by the way. And I am due on Aug 1-07. Cool huh? the ultrasound also showed when my last monthly period was. hehehe..
Ubuntu (Linux for Human Beings!)... am learning to love it!
Samba, terminal, nautilus... blah blah.. I beginning to really like what i am doing in my Ubuntu desktop. :D it makes me think creatively of how to be able to load some programs in my 'puter. Sometimes it forces me to be very very very patient and wait for ICT to be free in order to answer some of my questions... some other times, it forces me to settle with what's on the net! hahahaha
Funny but it is really a very good learning experience, I should say.
I am trying to install ENVY, so I can maximize my video card, or so George (ICT wiz!) says.
So much for today, got tons of things to do...
till my next post!
Funny but it is really a very good learning experience, I should say.
I am trying to install ENVY, so I can maximize my video card, or so George (ICT wiz!) says.
So much for today, got tons of things to do...
till my next post!
True Freedom
True Freedom
February 4, 2007
As a squadron commander, I find myself sometimes in the position of coaching young adults on the difference between freedom and license. It is not a distinction the world teaches them; in fact, some would argue that society works very hard to blur the distinction.
Freedom is the ability to choose what is good for us; license is defined as excessive freedom which prevents us from choosing what is good for us. Some even call that condition enslavement. It is no coincidence that licentiousness (immorality, especially in sexual immorality) shares the same root word with license.
As Christians, we have often heard the familiar quote from St John's Gospel, "And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free" (Jn 8:32), but do we really understand what that means? The Catechism of the Catholic Church reveals that Man's freedom is rooted in his being made in the image and likeness of God:
God created man a rational being, conferring on him the dignity of a person who can initiate and control his own actions. "God willed that man should be 'left in the hand of his own counsel,' so that he might of his own accord seek his Creator and freely attain his full and blessed perfection by cleaving to him" (#1730).
Note that this definition emphasizes that freedom means that Man is able to make the choice for good, rather than the enslavement to choose only those things that hurts us. True freedom means being able to seek God and not be hindered in our relationship with him.
As a military officer, I am often called upon to remind my airmen that the Air Force doesn't set standards of behavior to hinder their freedom. Rather, we set standards of behavior to keep them safe and healthy, ready to accomplish our mission...and to have the defense of our countrymen in our hands is a serious responsibility indeed. When airmen violate those standards, leaders must do their duty and hold them accountable; that is justice. The repercussions for violating military standards range from minor to severe, depending on the offense, and always entail some sort of consequences to the offender like a fine, extra duty, or loss of a stripe.
The same is true for God's Law. As a Good Father, He loves us and wants the best for us. In His Word He told us to "choose life" (Duet 30:19), that in following His way we can receive the abundant life (Jn 10:10) He offers us. By following Jesus Christ, we have the freedom to turn away from sin and can break the enslavement that sinfulness places on us. He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life, and through His sacrifice on the Cross we are freed from the darkness that sin covers us in. By violating God's Law, we receive the just rewards for our disobedience: unhappiness and ill health (both spiritual and sometimes even physical). As St Paul famously said, "The wages of sin is death" (Rom 6:23).
This is not the voice of the world however, as I am consistently reminded when I look out into "popular culture." From the music on the airways, to the magazine rack at the grocers, to the television programs that are offered daily, the world seeks to tell us, "go ahead, you'll be free if you do these things, it won't hurt a thing." It's the same lie that the serpent told Eve in the Garden, "You certainly will not die! No, God knows well that the moment you eat of it your eyes will be opened and you will be like gods who know what is good and what is bad" (Gen 3:4-5).
I'm reminded of this lie every time I see an ad for artificial contraceptives on television — they always show a beautiful young woman "liberated" by the drugs she's taken to suppress her fertility. What the ad doesn't show is the broken spirit from being used to satisfy men's needs at her own expense, and the toll on her psyche from denying the part of her that makes her uniquely a woman, her ability to carry new life within her body. Her freedom has been suppressed in order to make her chemically sterile. By accepting the world's view of "freedom", she has been enslaved to the sorrow that follows.
The Catechism continues:
Freedom is the power, rooted in reason and will, to act or not to act, to do this or that, and so to perform deliberate actions on one's own responsibility. By free will one shapes one's own life. Human freedom is a force for growth and maturity in truth and goodness; it attains its perfection when directed toward God, our beatitude (#1731).
When we exercise our true freedom, rather than the license of the world, we are able to choose life as God offers. In the process we grow in holiness, and become more fully human as our Father in Heaven had in mind. To be human is to be free, and to be free is to be closer to God.
And that's the whole point.
Shifting to a new world...
I have officially moved over to the other world... I have junked (well, not really!) my Windows OS in favor of the Linux OS... Ubuntu.
Thanks to George of ICT, I'm learning to love how to use this thing.
More updates soon, I promise.
Thanks to George of ICT, I'm learning to love how to use this thing.
More updates soon, I promise.
Friends Ko to!
Last night was a blast! I met with my 3 beautiful friends (so 4 na kami beautiful), at Belly's Grill. It may be the last dinner with all four of us present as Haezel is bound to leave for Dubai on Feb 7.It was a night full of surprises, well, for Bamba anyway (or anyhoots, as she calls it!). She was the last to know of my condition... but Bam, definitely you'll be one of the ninangs! ;) And Haezel too. It was funny. Her (Bamba) reaction that is! I mean, really I did not intend to not let her know, it was just I am so uncomfortable to let her know the great news over the phone or YM, so I opted to wait until we met personally.
These people are three of my personal favorites. All has different personalities, and I mean, all three! Haezel, the ever "tarong" person. Chantal, the noisy and makulit and very bossy personality. And Bamba, well, the ever yellow, ever smiling and charming lady that she is. They are all unique! But mind you, whenever we get together, expect a very noisy table beside you... ANd expect that group to be there until the store closes...
Haay, when will this happen again? I hope soon? In Hong Kong perhaps? At maghasik tayo ng lagim natin dun? Ayt?!
Rain
I have never seen more rain in my life save for the last two days. Thank goodness the sun is already up (this afternoon) today. It was already cold last week, with temperature that ranges from 22-24C (71-75F) until this morning, i hope this will last till Friday, not the rain but the cold temperature. It is not always that we experience such cold weather in the Philippines! It is always, hot and hotter!
But still I thank God for sending only this to us here. It was on the news that Jakarta has been experiencing too much rain for the past week. And they are under chest deep of water from I don't know when. haaay..
It's almost a month now that Bowits flew to Canada. We're in constant communication. We always talk on the phone. But I do the calling rather than him. Or we exchange text messages. But the miss factor really is there. I miss having him by my side... always asking to be massaged, or held.. or anything... for water perhaps? Even if I find it quite annoying at times, I still do miss those times.
I saw one of his basketball playmates one afternoon bringing a ball from a recent game they had... oh how i miss those times when he'd ask me to just stay at home to wait for him to come back.. usually after 2 hours of play. Then when he do return, all sweaty man that he is (ew!).. he'd brag how he became the hero of the game! Haaay, boys will always be boys.
Today is supposed to be tita Grace's bday. In canada, in a few hours time... oh, it's already her bday (its already 1AM in canada as of press time).
Haaay... waiting was not a very good personal virtue... I am getting good at it though... Thank God!
But still I thank God for sending only this to us here. It was on the news that Jakarta has been experiencing too much rain for the past week. And they are under chest deep of water from I don't know when. haaay..
It's almost a month now that Bowits flew to Canada. We're in constant communication. We always talk on the phone. But I do the calling rather than him. Or we exchange text messages. But the miss factor really is there. I miss having him by my side... always asking to be massaged, or held.. or anything... for water perhaps? Even if I find it quite annoying at times, I still do miss those times.
I saw one of his basketball playmates one afternoon bringing a ball from a recent game they had... oh how i miss those times when he'd ask me to just stay at home to wait for him to come back.. usually after 2 hours of play. Then when he do return, all sweaty man that he is (ew!).. he'd brag how he became the hero of the game! Haaay, boys will always be boys.
Today is supposed to be tita Grace's bday. In canada, in a few hours time... oh, it's already her bday (its already 1AM in canada as of press time).
Haaay... waiting was not a very good personal virtue... I am getting good at it though... Thank God!
Hector and Tetet's Wedding
January 27, 2007. It was such a beautiful, sunny Saturday.
Today marks a new day of the the lives of Hector (as i like calling him!) and Tetet. They're tying the knot, finally!
I was hoping, so was tetet that my honey could be here for this such beautiful occasion.
I was kinda apprehensive to attend actually, had I not been asked to read during the mass, I won't go actually. Why you ask, for sure, I'd be out of place for my hun aint there beside me. Well, I know throms (the guy in one of the pictures!), and I am pretty sure he won't leave me. But aside from him I practically do not know anyone else. ;) Surprise surprise! Caerel, Anton's GF (anton is hector's friend from way back) was there...
I have never been happier to see a familiar face. I hitched a ride with them going to the reception (took the taxi from home) and then we were totally inseparable from that point on.. Kwentuhan was fun. Reminiscing the good ol' high school days was totally cool... and getting news from friends who I have lost contact with.
To Hector and Tetet, Congratulations and Best Wishes... May the Lord God bless you and your family... and babies? I hope you have many!
Of friends and foes
Friends come and friends go... so do Foes.
It dawned on me last night that, I have only told a few people of my current condition (read previous blog entry). I think it comes with the fact that I am not yet married and that my hun isn't around, physically at this point in my life but I know he's always there keeping us close to his heart.
I only keep a handful of really close friends. I do not even consider some college friends as people whom I can really really call unto when I need them compared to two of my high school friends. That's Haezel and Chantal... When I learned of my condition, they were one of the few people I told the news to. Chantal, being her usual self, told me gaga... and yet, lovingly asked how I am doing. She even gave me some advise! ha! It sounds funny, but she did! Haezel on the other hand , well, I did not quite expect that kind of reaction from her. She spank me on the head.. asked me what I was thinking and why I did what I did.. and after settling down, well, I think she's happy too. Sad maybe that she's leaving for Dubai and won't be able to see me through the Nine months... well, she'll be updated through pictures!
Raissa, my new found friend inside the office... Aside from my hun, she was the first friend I
informed of the happy news... I thank her for being there, she asked me if I were happy..
Honestly, at that point, I was a bit nervous, if that's the right word for it. Nervous because I will be alone (in a way) facing all of this. Nervous, for my hun will be miles and miles away from me... He wouldn't be there to hold me when I have a lot of questions...And maybe nervous for what I'll be going through is something really really new to me. But I think, excited too.. for this is a blessing. :D
I have another friend whom I am contemplating on giving the news to... And then all of a sudden on Monday, I received a text message from him... yes, he's a guy friend. And when I got to read the message I was so disappointed. It would have been something if he showed he supported my situation, but to openly tell me that, well, that is another matter. I was hurt because I did not expect that from him. Well I guess there will be like that from now on.. I would not know when we'll be talking to each other again but I think I'll have to live with it and let the friendship i dunno, end just like that... I still have not decided.
It dawned on me last night that, I have only told a few people of my current condition (read previous blog entry). I think it comes with the fact that I am not yet married and that my hun isn't around, physically at this point in my life but I know he's always there keeping us close to his heart.
I only keep a handful of really close friends. I do not even consider some college friends as people whom I can really really call unto when I need them compared to two of my high school friends. That's Haezel and Chantal... When I learned of my condition, they were one of the few people I told the news to. Chantal, being her usual self, told me gaga... and yet, lovingly asked how I am doing. She even gave me some advise! ha! It sounds funny, but she did! Haezel on the other hand , well, I did not quite expect that kind of reaction from her. She spank me on the head.. asked me what I was thinking and why I did what I did.. and after settling down, well, I think she's happy too. Sad maybe that she's leaving for Dubai and won't be able to see me through the Nine months... well, she'll be updated through pictures!
Raissa, my new found friend inside the office... Aside from my hun, she was the first friend I
informed of the happy news... I thank her for being there, she asked me if I were happy..
Honestly, at that point, I was a bit nervous, if that's the right word for it. Nervous because I will be alone (in a way) facing all of this. Nervous, for my hun will be miles and miles away from me... He wouldn't be there to hold me when I have a lot of questions...And maybe nervous for what I'll be going through is something really really new to me. But I think, excited too.. for this is a blessing. :D
I have another friend whom I am contemplating on giving the news to... And then all of a sudden on Monday, I received a text message from him... yes, he's a guy friend. And when I got to read the message I was so disappointed. It would have been something if he showed he supported my situation, but to openly tell me that, well, that is another matter. I was hurt because I did not expect that from him. Well I guess there will be like that from now on.. I would not know when we'll be talking to each other again but I think I'll have to live with it and let the friendship i dunno, end just like that... I still have not decided.
Heartbeat
After almost a week of going through a hard time of asking for an appointment with my OB-Gyn I was finally able to get through yesterday.
I am pregnant.
Now to recount my first OB trip... oh wait, how did i know, the usual pregnancy test. Doc says its 98-100% reliable... so i thought I really must be. I have been delayed for 2 months now... and the last straw that really made me check, was when my ma and I went to the market and everything went.... omg! I think I'm going to faint... so there. I bought a pregnancy test kit and tested morning after. And, as they say, the rest is history.
Now, back to the OB visit. My Ma and I (I asked her to come with me) went to Quirino Doctors, at last, Dr. Darleen San Jose- Estuart is there to see patients. Thank you Lord, there is a reprieve in the delivery of babies.. ;)
Ha! So there, I arrived about 3PM and I have never seen too many pregnant women in one room. Hahaha... I wonder? It's an OB Gynecology clinic... hahaha... Saw different pregnant women, there were fat ones, kinda skinny ones, a very very pregnant one... a lady who I think recently just gave birth... Oh... too many pregnant woen around... huhuh... And suddenly I missed my honey... I wish he was there to hold my hand while waiting for the doc.
Then came mama nearly 4pm... We still have to wait about 30 minutes for our turn... The secretary weighed me at about 113lbs Before I went in the doctor's office (inner doc's office).
Maybe it was usual doc's routine to ask questions... was it my first... (damn of course it's my first, I wouldn't be this nervous if it were not!), My age, family medical history and stuff.. Then the OB aske dmy about my last period. She then told me the happy news, that I'm expected to give birth around Aug 1, 2007 That should be the last day of the whole term but 3 weeks before that I may deliver. phew!
Doc then asked me to lie on a small examination table in order to hear the heartbeat of the baby... oh, so you can actually hear it, eh? So there I lay my head down, and opened my pants, just above the garter of my panties, Got her apparatus, applied some gel on it and pointed to me where the baby should be at this time... then of all the miracles I heard, a strong beating of the heart, and the doc lovingly said there... that's the baby.
Oh gosh... Heartbeat. I have never been so happy to hear heartbeats before... if only Bow's there to hear it. I'll try to record it next time.. :D
Colds, Montreal and Loneliness
It has been a sad different week. I already told ma, my sister, my staff and my boss. It's kinda exhilarating in a way to be out in the open (in a way). I don't have to guard my thoughts, guard the way I dress, lest people will notice. Now, what the heck! I have asked or talked to the people who mattered to me now.
I caught the colds last week. I was about to go the doctor on Wednesday when, boom! aaay! Facial ache accomanied by fever I think, and earache and splitting headache... huhuhuh... that was something.. And it left me with no choice but to talk to a doctor, any doctor... although I asked one of the head, whom I am more comfortable with. I still have to talk to the boss at this point remember?
On Friday here, around early evening, hun sent me a text message telling me that they have arrived in Montreal and that the apartment was really kinda small. :( Sad, but happy that they have arrived there. Of course, sad that I am in a way all alone (I have my family and friends here, and work!) but to be alone emotionally, I would have loved it when he's here to take care of me. Happy because all the time we were together we have been waiting for the day when he will really really go to canada and begin working there.
My nights have been quite cold and lonely.. I have been alone in the room for about 4 weeks now. :( it is sad, but I know in time he will be back... We'll again be together and start our very own family.
We were already able to talk to one another last Sunday lunch time and when he called in the evening. I was so glad when I heard his voice on the opposite side of the line...He's sick, as usual. cough. :( He'll get used to it though.. haaay....
Nasa Toronto na siya
They have arrived in Toronto safe and sound... I got a text message telling me all's well with them and that I have to send him peso load for his Smart! hehehe! Ain't this supposed to be the other way around?
I do miss him.. terribly.
Hon, if you get to read this... I miss you and I love you so much!
I do miss him.. terribly.
Hon, if you get to read this... I miss you and I love you so much!
Waiting...
And the waiting officially begins...
Jan 18, 2007: Very early, around 5AM hon sent me a txt message telling me they're on their way to QC from Bulacan to get their luggage en route to NAIA. They're supposed to leave about 12noon Philippine time.
One call around 10am, they are at the airport already... talked a little, he was very uneasy should i say? Or was it nervousness in his voice I hear... Then tito Fred and I talked for a while... asked questions here and there..."Kamusta? Kamusta ang Bahay, the usual I think...Then back to honey... He's having his usual stomach problems... from lack of sleep and proper meal earlier... ha! where is the gastripack when you need it?! hehehe... I asked him to rest for a while since flight is still about 12 noon.
Another call came in about 11AM. This time, I can feel tears welling at the back of my eyes. It hurts not to be able to get it out (I am inside the office by the way).. so I have to hold it back. Talked to him, asked him to take good care of himself... as usual, he's in his bad mood, bad attitude when I remind him that... he's all grown up you know, and does not want to be reminded that... I think its really nagging to him when I do that. Should I be worried or what?
12nn. A text came, they have boarded... ANd that he'll miss me and he loves me so much! *Of course theres the reply of me loving him back and will be missing him too!*
And I wait... and wait...
3:30PM- they have arrived in Hong Kong. They are due to fly in a few hours... exchanged a couple of texts (literally a couple!) and then... Again...
The agony of Waiting (again).
Jan 18, 2007: Very early, around 5AM hon sent me a txt message telling me they're on their way to QC from Bulacan to get their luggage en route to NAIA. They're supposed to leave about 12noon Philippine time.
One call around 10am, they are at the airport already... talked a little, he was very uneasy should i say? Or was it nervousness in his voice I hear... Then tito Fred and I talked for a while... asked questions here and there..."Kamusta? Kamusta ang Bahay, the usual I think...Then back to honey... He's having his usual stomach problems... from lack of sleep and proper meal earlier... ha! where is the gastripack when you need it?! hehehe... I asked him to rest for a while since flight is still about 12 noon.
Another call came in about 11AM. This time, I can feel tears welling at the back of my eyes. It hurts not to be able to get it out (I am inside the office by the way).. so I have to hold it back. Talked to him, asked him to take good care of himself... as usual, he's in his bad mood, bad attitude when I remind him that... he's all grown up you know, and does not want to be reminded that... I think its really nagging to him when I do that. Should I be worried or what?
12nn. A text came, they have boarded... ANd that he'll miss me and he loves me so much! *Of course theres the reply of me loving him back and will be missing him too!*
And I wait... and wait...
3:30PM- they have arrived in Hong Kong. They are due to fly in a few hours... exchanged a couple of texts (literally a couple!) and then... Again...
The agony of Waiting (again).
It must be the weather
Was absent yesterday. I was down with a bad case of sinusitis... i haven't been that sick for so long. To top that, I was almost alone at home.. Well, honey's mama (read: lola) was there to cook and actually pseudo-take care of me... but aside from that, I am all alone...Señorita by the way was there too... the ever cutie shitzu-eskimo dog left inside the house... And bully (the lovely pit bull), fifi (the sweet doberman, doberdog.. hehe), maxxene and kenshin (sweet and noisy labs).
So there, I had a bad case of colds, headache, facial ache and ear ache! all that in one day! ANd to think, I was supposed to see the doctor and was not able to because the doc was really busy, and that was not for the colds, by the way!
Just a recap of my day yesterday...
Today, I was able to speak to my hun via YM.. I missed him so much... (I have been doing that since jan. 1.. haaay... it's double the miss now! ;) ;)
The man that he is...
taken on our hiking trip some 5 years ago... *Dinner date, December 2006
How time flies... has it really been six years? Six years of joy, hurt, sweet nothings and loving...
Yep! It has been... the basic difference? He's on his way to Canada and I'll be left here in Davao awaiting his return.
It was not a very pleasant six years at all.. not all joy and bliss... In fact there were time when we were on the verge of really separating. actually we did separate for a couple, 3? four times? But I stood my ground, and I knew it was a passing thing... I held on to what I knew was our promise to each one. And now, we have come this far.
I am not perfect.. far from it. I get jealous. Really, I do. I hate it when he has to go out at night and has to go with his friends.. especially whenever there are girl friends around... pisses me off! But I have to let him.. lest he scolds me that I am over reacting.
Now, it's a different story, I have to trust him with all my heart... he has to be trusted or this jealous rage inside me will implode any moment! And I wouldn't want that to happen. I have myself to protect... I have a relationship to protect... even for two years.
Yes, we'll be separated physically for two years. I'll be left in Davao to fend for myself while he in Canada to work his a$% off for our future. Thus the trust.
He may have all the faults, a lot will tell me that but they aren't in the relationship that we are in.
I pray to God we get through this... and be forever again in another 2 years.
**While writing, Bowits is in Bulacan, stopping over to his relatives before his actual flight to Canada on Jan. 18, 2007
