Of friends and foes

Friends come and friends go... so do Foes.

It dawned on me last night that, I have only told a few people of my current condition (read previous blog entry). I think it comes with the fact that I am not yet married and that my hun isn't around, physically at this point in my life but I know he's always there keeping us close to his heart.

I only keep a handful of really close friends. I do not even consider some college friends as people whom I can really really call unto when I need them compared to two of my high school friends. That's Haezel and Chantal... When I learned of my condition, they were one of the few people I told the news to. Chantal, being her usual self, told me gaga... and yet, lovingly asked how I am doing. She even gave me some advise! ha! It sounds funny, but she did! Haezel on the other hand , well, I did not quite expect that kind of reaction from her. She spank me on the head.. asked me what I was thinking and why I did what I did.. and after settling down, well, I think she's happy too. Sad maybe that she's leaving for Dubai and won't be able to see me through the Nine months... well, she'll be updated through pictures!
Raissa, my new found friend inside the office... Aside from my hun, she was the first friend I
informed of the happy news... I thank her for being there, she asked me if I were happy..

Honestly, at that point, I was a bit nervous, if that's the right word for it. Nervous because I will be alone (in a way) facing all of this. Nervous, for my hun will be miles and miles away from me... He wouldn't be there to hold me when I have a lot of questions...And maybe nervous for what I'll be going through is something really really new to me. But I think, excited too.. for this is a blessing. :D

I have another friend whom I am contemplating on giving the news to... And then all of a sudden on Monday, I received a text message from him... yes, he's a guy friend. And when I got to read the message I was so disappointed. It would have been something if he showed he supported my situation, but to openly tell me that, well, that is another matter. I was hurt because I did not expect that from him. Well I guess there will be like that from now on.. I would not know when we'll be talking to each other again but I think I'll have to live with it and let the friendship i dunno, end just like that... I still have not decided.