Colds, Montreal and Loneliness

It has been a sad different week. I already told ma, my sister, my staff and my boss. It's kinda exhilarating in a way to be out in the open (in a way). I don't have to guard my thoughts, guard the way I dress, lest people will notice. Now, what the heck! I have asked or talked to the people who mattered to me now.

I caught the colds last week. I was about to go the doctor on Wednesday when, boom! aaay! Facial ache accomanied by fever I think, and earache and splitting headache... huhuhuh... that was something.. And it left me with no choice but to talk to a doctor, any doctor... although I asked one of the head, whom I am more comfortable with. I still have to talk to the boss at this point remember?

On Friday here, around early evening, hun sent me a text message telling me that they have arrived in Montreal and that the apartment was really kinda small. :( Sad, but happy that they have arrived there. Of course, sad that I am in a way all alone (I have my family and friends here, and work!) but to be alone emotionally, I would have loved it when he's here to take care of me. Happy because all the time we were together we have been waiting for the day when he will really really go to canada and begin working there.

My nights have been quite cold and lonely.. I have been alone in the room for about 4 weeks now. :( it is sad, but I know in time he will be back... We'll again be together and start our very own family.

We were already able to talk to one another last Sunday lunch time and when he called in the evening. I was so glad when I heard his voice on the opposite side of the line...He's sick, as usual. cough. :( He'll get used to it though.. haaay....